Thursday, October 19, 2006

Late Posting

Here it is, late at night when I really should be sleeping. But I was just inspired by my friends Matt and Clint. It's important that we don't just post things that are inherently selfish, although I'm not sure how to avoid that tendency. We live life, and we want to share it with you, our friends. But to jump away from mere experiences that we'll continue to share with you, let me share a little about the struggles of life that I've been encountering.

1) Being a husband...what an adventure! It's hard to put into words the difficult, perplexing, and utterly fascinating aspects I find in understanding the particular woman that God graciously gave to me. She is the most amazing person in the world, yet we don't have a perfect relationship. We can have a beautifully relational day, and the next day seems to open an ocean of misunderstanding between us. Most of the time I finally come to understand that the misunderstanding is something that I've done/not done. Those are the days that make sense to me. However, the utterly perplexing days are those on which I can find no logical reason for our emotional and interpersonal separation. And I believe that is where I go wrong...I'm not supposed to understand it logically. I need to come to grips with the fact that life is so much more interconnected to Erin than it will ever be for me, no matter how emotional of a person that I am. That is what makes her the wonderful gift from God that she is.

2) Working full-time. This is a mind-numbing sensation sometimes. I can empathize with Clint in his lack of motivation in his job when I think about the landscaping job that I had the first couple of years that we lived here in Colorado. However, the new job that I have brings a new aspect of vibrancy and clarity to my life...not to mention the fact that it opens the country and the world up to us with incredible travel benefits. This new clarity brings me to my next point...

3) Flight school. I am doing what I dreamed of doing as a small boy. This job with Frontier Airlines has reawakened my passion for flying that I've always had. I fly several times per week, and I learn more about what it means to be the responsible pilot that I aspire to be. I wanted to start flight school last year, but the timing wasn't right. Erin and I had to go through the journey of discovering that God did not design us to live and work in ministry overseas at this time in our lives. It is important that I always remember that my job here on this earth is to obey Him in whatever He leads us to do. Flight school was dumped in my lap, and the Father has given me peace, as well as a fully supportive wife to pursue this path. He placed this passion within me. Therefore, I am confident that He is leading me.

These three aspects of life cause me to want to know more about what you, the reader thinks of one or more of these pursuits. However, I am mainly interested in knowing what three things (excluding your assumed (hopefully!) walk with Christ) are the most important to you at this time in your life. How does it all fit together?

1 comment:

JGaroutte said...

I'm not ignoring this one... it's caused me to think quite a bit...

In response to your focus, I'm excited to see that your marriage, your work, and your current pursuits of a childhood dream are well underway... You began with "let me share a little about the struggles of life that I've been encountering," yet by the end it seemed to be more of "let me share a little about the blessing of life that I've been encountering." Whether tension is afflicting your focus or not, it sounds like you are in a good place... That's exciting...

In respose to my "3Things," that's a tough one... Based upon my use of time, it appears that learning is something I value greatly... Based upon my use of money, it seems that coffee tops off the list... And based upon my sleeping habits, sleep would definitely NOT top the list...

As it stands, the only serious experience that I can pinpoint right now as important to me is family. My relationship with my wife may appear a bit unorthodox (mostly due to the time we get together), yet God has truly blessed us--our experience doesn't seem to fit any molds for marriage that others have created... I'm beginning to value more and more the friendship of one who used to be my nemesis--my older brother, and absolutely nothing in life could be better than being "Uncle Jamin & Aunt Amy"!

Only thing missing is a dog... dag-nabit!